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is my new livejournal, i wanted everything to be the same as my sn and all that, so add it.
k cool.
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| FRIENDS ONLY. |
[23 Dec 2005|07:03am] |
My name is Megan,
I hate my name spelt/typed out. I am sixteen years old. I feel a lot older than I am though; just cause I feel like I have experienced more than I can handle. It hurts really bad sometimes. How everyone else sees me, and how I see myself, are two completely different views. So I can't really sit here and explain myself to you. But I want to. I want to tell you about my hopes and my dreams, but to be honest, I don't really have any. Everything that I used to be so sure of is kind of falling apart. And I can't stop it. What I can tell you is who i'll be with the rest of my life and that is Travis. I love a lot of people in my life right now, don't get me wrong. Travis Beeson, James Howard, Jared Rector, and Nikki are my best friends; they are seriously a part of me. I love all my other friends so much as well. They are such beautiful and amazing people. It's just so hard, because there is so much drama, and I feel like I always start it. I don't try. I guess it's just cause I am not comfortable enough with myself, and so I cause other people to be apart of my immature behavior. Even though I'm not completely comfortable with myself, and I don't "love" my body; I am one of the few people I know who can [and probably will] get naked anywhere, no matter who I am with. I would rather be naked than dressed, mainly because imperfections are fucking amazing, & you can't change them. You are who you are, love yourself for what you were given.
add me if you want, i'll add back :)
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| loveeee, megan |
[16 Nov 2005|03:05pm] |
everytime i think of travis, i still get the butterflies.
last night, he called me at like, midnight...or around there...
he got my letter!, we talked for a while. then he had to go cause
he thought his stepmom woke up...or something. then he calls me back
and is like, "megan..." i say, "yes?" he says, "i love you. i seriously, love you..."
my heart smiled last night...
<3
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[25 Oct 2005|09:58am] |
im bored. i didn't go to sleep last night. i hate when you get confused, but you can't do anything about it. like, you can't call the person you need to talk to. and im going to get to talk to him, but not for longer than two mintues, eh fuck it. i'll ask him what i want to know. anyway, im not that tired. but i have to call my mom and ask for the zip code for lake elsinore. i have 5 possible zip codes. i wonder if it even matters if there's a zip code, as long as there's an address. i need fucking stamps, i need to get this letter sent today, before the postman gets here. uggh. i got bored, here are some pictures to entertain you...
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[24 Oct 2005|08:38pm] |
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i woke up at 4:45 in the afternoon today. i crashed my brother's bed last night, because my room has, nothing in it as of right now. and he going to spend the night at his girlfriends tonight, so i get his bed again tonight. last night i was on the phone with travis and it was nice, that boy is likee, the cutest thing in the world, i went to the gas station tonight with lauren, and i saw those cheesy fake flowers they have there, and i smiled, this weekend has to be, too amazing for words. like shit, it just has to be. im stealing his sweater so that way i can have something of his to wear all the time. im so glad we started talking about liking eachother. we'll have been friends for a year in like, janurary. i just wish you guys could know him, i swear that kid will make you smile even if you're having the worst day of your life. he is just, so amazing. there was a period of time where i didn't talk to him for a while and he was never on, that sucked. but anyway, he's kind of mine, not yet, but he will be. and i'll be his. and i might get to see kaseeeymahoneeyy!, another amazing kid i haven't seen in almost a year and a half, err. i hate being so far away from those kids. anyway, haha i remembered the other day when kasey prank called me one night i was going to hang out with corey, he was acting like a sheep and kept repeated hacker over and over. then he hung up and i called him back, and he kept doing the same thing. and i was like, "hahaha! is this kasey?!" and he was like, "hahaaa, yeah." hahaha, he's so funny. i really hope to see him and travis this weekend. that would be so much fun. and maybe nikki will come with me?, yeah hopefully. i hope our fish [maisy] is doing okay!, hahaa. i was so scared of that little thing. like, it was going crazy in the little cup it came in, and i could feel it hitting the sides when it was in my hand, it was so creepy i started screaming like a little girl, ahaha. man, eric pisses me off with what he told joe. like, wthell is his problem?? i didn't ask him to go around starting shit. whatever, eric is lame, nuff said, niggguhh. ahahha, my friend from school, david called me, he's this tiny boy, and he's really nice, we're best friends...hahaha, anyway, he called me and for like, 10 mintutes i thought it was david from sos, haha, i found out it wasn't when i said, "who took those pictures of you in the field?" and he was like, "what pictures? there aren't any pictures of my in the field?" hahahahahhaa, then i was like, "wait, what david is this?" hahaha, i felt so stupid, but i was just laughing at myself like, for 5 mintues. then i told davidfro and he started laughing. ahaha, anyway. i helped sean dig in the trash tonight for his guessjeans tag. haha, it was comedy and now our neighbor thinks we're trashdiggers....HAHAHA! yeah, i just HAVE to say something in this about this. like, WHAT THE HELL is lauren and tori's problem? when we were at the plaza the other night, and tori opened her bigass mouth and saying. "EW! EW! EW! EW!" so fucking loud? like honestly, how immature was that shit? and her being little miss, "anti-drama".....im so done with those girls. and lauren fucking acting like the world is over just because her and nikki aren't as close as they were. and her saying im jealous of her?! she's jealous just because me and nikki are becoming better friends then they were, she should honestly just get over it, since she has tori now. hahahaha and thomask is great. on the way home the other night, i was so afraidd i was going to get that strawberry soda on my shoes, that wouldn't have been good. i was talking to brent last night, and it's so confusing talking to that kid, like you can't tell if he's serious or not...him and liz need to get together already, and stay together. that would be so awesome. im really excited about me and travis. he's such the romantic type and i love it, but it's not the TOO romantic type like james, which is good. everyone thinks i have sex with everyone, and it's getting on my last nerve. but im not going to sit and explain myself to people that could give a shit about me. i'll probably write more later, if you're interested, cause right now i have to finish writing my boyyy. ily everyone. <3
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[23 Oct 2005|08:50pm] |
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hahaha, great. friends only. so me and nikki can only see shit i write, because stupid, fat ugly bitches that think they're greater than everyone else, can go fuck themselves and shut the fuck up!
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[23 Oct 2005|05:22pm] |
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it feels like i haven't updated in SO long, so many things have happened. hmmm, david = no. me and nikki went to the st. catherines festival, we got two goldfish's, one died....
anyway,
we had SO much fun. but being hit on by a good friend, is NEVER a good thing. especially if you see that person as JUST a friend, and nothing more. which in this case was my situation. hmm. i got sick after me and nikki went on the zipper three times in a row, and laughing our asses off that we cried. hahaa, that was so much fun. the rest of the night was boring though, but being out was cool. nikki's mom is hilarious. HOMO<3 haha is amazing, and he is mine, and i am his. he's taking pictures for me later, and then i'll have a picture of him, fo sho.
ahh, this is wonderful.
nikki knows what im talking about.
i'll write more later.
im happpy times a billion.
this is mine.
lytravis.
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[20 Oct 2005|10:00pm] |
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. OH MAN! tonight has been awesome. i think girls are hilarious. like seriously, they are all bitches. im just glad im not like that. i feel sorry for those girls. anyway, this weekend
is going to be fun. maybe me and nikki are going to hang out with david&chris, im not sure. if not we're having a girls night. yeah so, no matter what this weekend is going to be awesome. and i don't have to worry about taking the time to get my snakebites. nigguh already got em. im still laughing, girls are lame.
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[20 Oct 2005|03:10pm] |
hi, im megan.
let me photograph you.
let me make you look like a star.
let me amaze you, let me change your life.
let me love you, let me live.
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[19 Oct 2005|02:22pm] |
it's official, im moving right down the street from summit view, like a 3 minute walk. yay.
the house is beautiful. and it's bigger than our house is, but a one story, im so excited.
i can have a sleepover for everyone at my new casa. SWEEEEET!
brent called me todayy, it was nice. talking to him is fun, just because it's like
talking to a best friend, which is what he is to me. today is going smooth so far.
i just wish i had some good music to listen to, just the right music. suggestions?
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[17 Oct 2005|02:07pm] |
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corey called me.
i wish he would just leave me alone,
and go get my other friends and kiss them.
UGH! time to move on, YAY. i've got my
eye on someoneeee, and im stoked. : ]
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[16 Oct 2005|03:01pm] |
me and jared talked on the phone last night.
it was fun, like old times....ok, actually like
two weeks ago old times. i just hate how he fucked
up everything, and just doesn't care. meh, whatever.
i was talking to david last night. aw he's cute.
it's like santa ana winds right now, that shit is
intense, homie. im going to get my snakebites in about
an hour. then hopefully hanging out with nikki & our
boys. but i have a feeling just her boy will go, that
wouldn't be good. im so glad me and nikki aren't two-
faced. that would be horrible. i sound like a 5 year old
on the phone. i am so going to start talking in a deep
voice...that shit'll be so sexy. hahaa. man.
fuck that dude with the shaved head from lords is so hot.
ahh. jared just told me to call him, byee.
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| how do you rebuild yourself? |
[15 Oct 2005|05:41pm] |
i haven't written in this in forever.
a lot of things have happened.
and don't feel like typing them,
i lost an AMAZING boy, and don't
think i will ever find someone like
him and i lost someone who i thought
was my best friend, and fucked me
over & now, doesn't really care that i
have no one or nothing left.
jared cheated on his girlfriend, and his
normal self came in and denied it.
i really hope things go into pieces with
those two. thats a horrible thing to say,
but it's something that should be said.
i miss the old days. when i would come
home to being scared to death about getting
beat because i came home 4 hours past my curfew.
don't ask me why, but that's what i miss.
last night, was knott's scary farm.
me and liz met this boy from mo. val. he was
cuteee, i wanted him to be my best friend. haha : ]
i miss having someone who i can call at 3 in the
morning and how we would talk about just anything
that came to mind, that was always nice to turn to.
but it's all good. i have less drama now. that and
i don't have to hear about fat cheerleaders, and that's
always good to have nothing to do with those...things.
i am so nice. anyway, we went to sevan's house before
knott's last night and had wine coolers, because the vodka
was all goneee.
i look scared. lauren...looks like lauren, and liz, wtf i don't know.
knott's was alright. me and liz left early and went to the gas station,
got sprite...then got drunk, and went to denny's. i was so falling asleep
the whole time. and there was this steak on the menu, it was fucking nasty.
i had to turn it over. and i could barely eat my salad. me and liz both miss
brent so much : [ : [ i still wonder what he told the guys about him and liz.
im just glad i know what really happened. those guys are scum. i don't see how
brent and jon could relate with those dudes. they're way better than that.
they mine as well hang out at a jail and wait for inmates to come out and chill
with them. it's pretty much the same thing. natalie is nice. she called me like,
last weekend or something, it was fun talking to her. i am getting snakebitesss
tomorrow. yayy, fucking finally. me and nikki are supposed to go out tonight, we'll
see what happens, i don't think we'll be about to find anything to do. i could
call that david fro boy, but i'll wait till later. andy said he would let me know
if they were up to anything tonight. i was disappointed last night, i wanted to see
chris, blah whatever. i forgot how fun it was to just ramble about lame shit in here.
so, im starting to really hate paige. me and nikki were busting shit out about her
yesterday. hahaa, STD. nigga needs a grill. that was mean, but fuck that shit. im
not going to be nice anymore. karli is stopping by monday before she gets inked, i think
she should stop by after though, so lauren and liz can see her too. it's been ages
since we've seen that hoe. [just kidding] : ] : ]
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[30 Sep 2005|03:03pm] |
i don't have a computer a the moment.
so i won't be on for a couple days.
[until monday]
peaceeee.
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| i hope you choke on every word you spoke while you were screaming at me. |
[25 Sep 2005|11:11pm] |
And all those stars were our chandelier,
And all these landscapes were our living rooms,
And all these highways are veins.
i am not going to write in this anymore,
only when something good happens.
things are too good and livejournal
starts more shit that nobody needs.
payyyce.
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| 7 more minutes until i can take this burrito off my arm. |
[25 Sep 2005|06:39pm] |
i miss corey. and i most likely won't see him until wednesday.
the band plays in hollywood tomorrow, and he's most likely going
to that, then the next day he has school, so i probably won't see
him until wednesday. but it's ok, as long as i get to see him soon.
i want to go hiking, haha.
i really want to go watch
a movie right about now.
we're getting pizza later,
and i would like tony's more,
if that made any sense.
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| how many times can we watch this crumble? [FRIENDS ONLY!] |
[22 Sep 2005|04:54am] |
comment to be added;
or make a livejournal;
cause this shit is friends only, NOW.
Everybody waits for the day they meet their true love. Sometimes we think we’ve found them, but it doesn’t turn out the way it’s supposed to and we easily lose those feelings. But once you find your true love, you can’t imagine spending your life with anyone else. All you want is for that one person to be the happiest he or she can be, and you need their love. But the best thing is, they feel the same exact way about you.
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